i had a dream that doofenshmirtz from phineas and ferb was like threatening me and he had this secret code where he basically would delete your tumblr and you had 5 minutes to figure out the code to undelete it or it was deleted forever and he did this TWICE and I was seriously like freaking the fuck out trying to save my tumblr
that either
a. he is a creepy creeper and is crazy and stage 100 clinger
or
b. he really is that nice and is actually truly excited because he thinks I like him back?
(I’m trying to be positive and think it’s the latter, and that he won’t stalk my life but previous experience tells me it is the former)
I imagine them talking in a monotone unenthusiastic voice.
Like a business transaction through texts…
The booty shake, and the booty shake original.
that I need to give up some/all of the activities I take part in at school, so I can have more time to focus on graduating. I know some people will be mad at me, but I’m going to have more and more trouble putting my all into these things, and I don’t feel it’s fair to do something and not put your all into it. Too many difficult decisions, and I don’t know what to do. Blah.
I have no fucking clue. This sucks.
First class at 10:50! I’m a little over excited but not at the same time! I haven’t picked out the ceremonious “first day outfit” because I suck at life! I don’t know what to wear! I don’t know how I’m going to get into the swing of things with this summer being so non productive! Nonetheless, I’m getting first day jitters (yes I used the word jitters) and my brain is kinda like gdjfkslkfdhgnslakifs and I kind of just want to be there already! fgbsjkldfgd
But I don’t care enough to think about it. Hopefully he doesn’t fuck me over again.
A poem by me:
I’m ugly.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I’m intense.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I never fight back.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I don’t know how to cry.
Why doesn’t he love me?
In fact, I show no emotion at all.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I hate my voice.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I avoid people to avoid judgement.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I want to smash my reflection.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I fuck up every situation.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I can’t take criticism.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I’m not good at anything.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I overanalyze everything.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I don’t respect myself.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I let other people control my life.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I live mostly in my head.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I run away from everyone including myself.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I don’t think I have a heart.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I’m stupid.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I hate myself.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I hate everything about myself.
Why doesn’t he love me?
I don’t love myself.
Why should he?
